Bad Feeling

Sometimes I find myself unable to socialize and communicate with people. Regarding office colleague or personal friend. I had a hard time trying to communicate with people properly. I feel so unless because I know other knew that I cant socialize to make them smile, laugh and bring happiness. Others always overestimate by putting a high hat on me. They assumed I know but in fact I hardly know anything at all. I am quite dumb. What to do? Just FML lo!

Sometimes I don't even feel like gather people or meeting up with people anymore. Things could be simple but always ended up complicated. Take and Give concept is not working. I feel like treating people sometimes but then again I would think back does the people deserve and appreciate my treat?

I guess my best friend would know I like to plan a lots of thing ahead. I have no ideas this is a good thing or a bad thing. Now I am thinking if I should carry on planning in such situation. I am in the passage of transmission. Loss of direction.

Did anyone knows how aching my heart feel? How disappointed my mind get?

Chinese New Year is coming. I hope everything goes right this year. I won't be meeting any one up next week. Well. We will see how it progress.